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Monday, April 16, 2012

wishful dreamers.

    When I was in college, a friend of mine made a journal and gave it to me as a gift when I graduated. She mod-podged pretty cut-outs from Anthropologie magazines on it's bound cover, and on the cream-colored pages inside she wrote special little notes throughout, funny prompts and quotes to get me thinking. I filled that journal with memories, prayers, and lists several years ago and slipped it into my bookshelf. But the other day, I found it and took it off the shelf, cracked it open, and my eyes fell upon a page somewhere near the middle of the journal, highlighted to me by the green ribbon holding it's place. On top of the page, my friend scribbled these words: "Write down 20 things you want to do in your lifetime here..." I wrote things I dreamed of doing. Big dreams that sounded silly, dreams that seemed like impossibilities. Things I've wanted to do since I was a little girl, places I dream of going. They're all there, in no particular order, but they are numbered, from 1-20. And they're all scrawled over the page in different colored ink, because I added to the list whenever inspiration hit, over the span of two years. It's a bucket list, of sorts. And sometimes, when I am overwhelmed and begin to forget who I am and what I want, I open the worn pages of my old journal and read over my dreams. The list makes me smile. #2 is: "Go cliff jumping in Greece", #4 - "Learn how to make perfect cappuccinos at home". "Spend New Year's Eve one year in New York City" is #17. And #20? "Visit Prince Edward Island someday". There are dreams on the list only I know. There are simple things, small things, and huge life-altering things. And I wonder if some of them will ever come true... or if they will forever be unfulfilled. My list does have a few lines crossed off, but not nearly as many as I would like. And the other day as I held that old diary in my hand, I thought... "Some of these...I can make these happen. Why haven't I?"

The reason is, you see ... because I am being a wishful dreamer.

"Some of us are wishful dreamers -

Lacking the will to do,

Without the magnitude of soul

To make our dreams come true."

-Claude John Cheek,  from "The Simple Things and Other Poems"

   Dreaming big is something close to my heart, and if you've followed along with my journey on this blog, you know it is something I've shared with you, my dear readers. But lately, I've been thinking about putting "feet to my dreams". Getting out there, stepping out of fear, and being passionate about pursuing my dreams and goals. I realized, I often find myself wishing for dreams without ever trying to pursue them. I often "lack the will to do", as the poem says.

And in my effort to enjoy life, make the most of each and every day and opportunity, and have a big, beautiful fabulous life - I want to be fearless and work to make my dreams come true.

Of course, sometimes God's plans are bigger than our dreams and sometimes, we must wait on His timing and there is nothing we can do to pursue certain dreams. And that's okay. One of my favorite Scripture that I've shared here before is:

"No one has ever seen a God like ours,
who works for those who wait for Him."
-Isaiah 64:4

I used to interpret that verse as - "Okay, I can just sit here and wait for the Lord to open doors, and I don't have to do a thing." In a way, this is true - He holds the Universe in His hands and He is the one in charge of my life. Yet He asks you and me to use the gifts, talents and abilities we have to do all we can, partnering with Him and allowing Him to direct us. Do you ever feel down, thinking about all you want to do, all you dream of, all you want to accomplish? I do. And I end up just sitting on my hands and wishing. This weekend, when I picked up my journal and thought about my bucket list, I decided to go out there and do all I can do pursue my dreams.

I want to be a passionate dreamer, not a wishful dreamer.

And, okay I'll admit - I got a little excited about the whole thing this weekend. On Sunday afternoon, my sister and I wandered through Abbott Kinney lane, a street in LA in Venice Beach. It's lined with unique, vintage shops and cool cafes. We strolled along the streets in the sunshine, and near the end of our time we needed to find a ladies room. We ducked into the nearest coffee shop - a hip place, with hip music, a hip menu, and even hipper people (including a Ryan Gosling look-alike I noticed standing in line) And as we walked out, I realized it was a popular coffee shop I've been dying to visit for months and months.  "Ughhh, I can't believe we don't have time to stop here!" I said to my sister as we walked out, sad we missed the opportunity, when I noticed one of the famed wide-mouthed cups of coffee sitting on a rustic wooden table outside the front door. It was just perfect - you know those beautiful cups of coffee that might as well be art? The ones with little swooping flowery pictures magically drawn into the foam? I whipped out my camera, dropped my purse and began shooting photos of it.  Because blossoming in my photography skills is on "the list" and my camera plays a big role in this whole dreaming big thing. And honestly, I just thought the cup of coffee was some kind of advertisement outside the shop window ...which doesn't really make sense now that I think of it - but it wasn't. Just as I'm leaning down, hair blowing all around, my head twisted to one side as I'm struggling to get the perfect angle for this shot, Mr. Ryan Gosling look-alike is suddenly standing next to me, staring at me with a puzzled look, taking the cup of coffee into his hands!!! "Uhhhh..." he mumbled... as my poor sister rolled her eyes and quickly began an explanation that went something like, "Oh my gosh, I am sooo sorry for my sister. She's a blogger...and photographer, and she just does stuff like this, artsy stuff, we totally didn't know this was your coffee!!" And of course, in true Gosling-like fashion he graciously said, "Oh, hey go for it." So, I stood there, awkwardly taking a picture of a stranger's coffee mug, thinking I'd taken this whole "dream big" and "let's pretend I'm a photographer" thing too far. It was kind of like one of those blogger moments (have you had them?) when you've asked you're twisting the arm or begging a family member or friend to take a photoshoot of your outfit in a park or your neighborhood, and the people walking by are staring and wondering if you somehow, suddenly got signed with some kind of modeling agency. We laughed about it, my poor sister shaking her head, probably thinking I've lost it and the Gosling look-alike wondering what kinda crazy girl would try to take a picture of someone's coffee mug sitting on a table..but hey, got a pretty good shot, huh?  

Being a passionate's not always easy. It requires faith. More faith than just wishing does. Because when you put yourself out there and chase your dreams, there is a possibility they may fall flat to the floor. But... there is also a thrilling possibility....that they might come true. And that you could be the happiest you've ever been in your entire life.

I loved this pretty mirror

this was a huge poster outside on a brick store wall

Oh, and I've added a #21 to my bucket list: have the magnitude of soul to make my dreams come true.

And ya know what? I am continuing my list on the back side of the page - because, 20 things is just not enough. You should make one too, my friend.... who knows where our dreams will take us.

G'nite, dreamers.


  1. What a cool present idea from your friend! :)
    have you herd of 101 in 1001? It's a list of 101 things you want to do in the next 1001 days. It's a really cool idea, I think. Google it. :)

  2. why must your posts and pictures always be amazing?? :P

  3. Great post! I'm inspired. I think I'll make a list, pretending I'm just a wishful dreamer, and then BOOM! I'll be passionate about it and do those things!

  4. sounds like a plan!!! :) maybe i should make a list too!

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  6. First of all - how AWESOME is that journal that your friend made you?! That is seriously such a wonderful idea...I would DIE if someone did something like that for me :)

    "I want to be a passionate dreamer, not a wishful dreamer." I LOVE THAT so, so much.

    And your Ryan Gosling look alike coffee! I love that you were bold enough to keep shooting with him standing there...I probably would've panicked lol.

    You're so, so wonderful Erin - you're doing great things!

    :) xo

    PS - love your blue outfit!

  7. I love bucket lists. Mine is ever growing as I think of new things to do and try and learn. Sometimes I actually add things after I have done them so I an check them off- I think, that most definitely should have been on my bucket list so I add it. Love your blog btw.

  8. Hi sweet lady! I found your blog via 'and today was a fairytale' and I'm SO GLAD that I did! I love finding sisters in Christ who blog; it's like finding a diamond in the rough. I'm your newest follower! Oh, and where do you live in Cali? Because I live here too! xoxo

  9. HAHA ok i am dying from laughing at that story with the ryan gosling look-alike ;)
    That is TOO funny! =)
    Love the idea =) I should make a list of all the dreams I have =)
    Much Love,

  10. Hahaha I feel like this stuff happens to me all the time and only fellow bloggers understand! Nobody understands what it's like to have to get pictures everywhere you go, and when you tell them your a blogger they're just like "uh... okay." How brave of you! ;)

  11. Love your pictures!!
    I have a May photo a day challenge coming up!! I hope you join in the fun!!!!

  12. Loved this one, darling! Seriously, we must be long lost twinsies. I'm a wishful dreamer, too! I have so many dreams but I'm usually far too fearful to try to make them happen. Gradually I'm making steps though, thanks to God's unending faithfulness and patience.
    xoxo, Alanna

  13. If anyone can do it, you can sweet friend!! You are one strong inspiring woman!! GO GET EM! :) XOXO

  14. I just found your blog and I'm sad it took me this long, its so fun! You are too cute and I love all your pictures! I'm your newest follower.


  15. Love your pictures!!
    I have a May photo a day challenge coming up!! I hope you join in the fun!!!!

  16. erin!! I was just checking to make sure you got your prize for my giveaway?? could you pleaaase email me and let me know? ( thankkss!!

  17. Your blog is so positive and refreshing!
    I'm glad I came by!
    Thank you so much for stopping by and sharing your positivity on my blog!

  18. Hi Erin! This is my first visit to your blog and I'm already hooked!

    I struggle with this too sometimes. I have SO MANY dreams that I fully intend on making come true...but reality is I'm not doing a whole lot to make it happen. So needed this and think I will come back to read it over and over again.

    About to join your site and follow you on Bloglovin :)

  19. Just found you via Cheery Disposition.

    LOVE YOUR BLOG! So great! Love the pictures and I absolutely just love this post... I have so many dreams... and I'm slowly but surely making all of them come true... one day at a time... being a divorced single mom doesn't leave a lot of time, but I'm not letting it stop me!

    Lovely blog!


  20. p.s. new follower :) Eager to read more!


  21. I love these pics. And you are so cute! I love your blog!

    Xx Kelly

  22. Your post made me jittery, giddy, and completely inspired.

    I spent the majority of my life as a passionate dreamer, and then it burned me one too many times. I listened to one too many people tell me that I'm weird. I became a wishful dreamer (because a dreamer is always a dreamer) and I have been battling depression ever since.

    But I'm realizing that a life lived to other's expectations is only have lived so I started a blog, and I started running, and I'm struggling everyday with confidence, trying to temper my passion to mitigate my losses, but still I press on.

    And your post made me realize that I don't need to temper my passion. I can live out loud. If you dream big, you can crash big, but it's the only way to soar.

  23. I feel like I've read on lots of blogs lists of what people want to accomplish and I feel like I need to start one! I love that you stated "I want to be a passionate dreamer, not a wishful dreamer.". Really put your dream into action!! I just finished the book Dream Big by Heather Boersma and it is amazing! And btw you are so gorgeous and I love your style ;-)

  24. I was getting convicted of similar things. I was such a daydreamer that I never actually did things and just lived in my own fantasy world.
    thank you for this entry!!!
    you've got a new follower :D

  25. You know what I love about dreams? I can go there anytime I want. Be with who I desire. Feel the freedom of love and emotion and be myself or someone magical. we can make them come true with a little imagination and will power. So say keep dreaming no matter what. You always have them in your mind and heart.

  26. this is an amazing post, i feel the same way- all these ideas and dreams I dont follow through with. thanks for the inspiration to get -er done!

  27. Cute blog! I've tagged you :)

  28. What a great friend you have!

    I'm new to your blog--excited to follow along!


  29. erin...i'm so glad you found my blog today! thank you for commenting; it really made my day. i'm going to tinker around on your blog now. is that an antique shop in one of the pics above? or a flea market outside? i see lots of yummy treasures!
    and #21 to your bucket list made me teary.

  30. Hmm..."Have the magnitude of soul to make my dreams come true."

    All I can say, is that I hope with everything within me, that you sign up for the Kite Project.

    It just might be wonderful. It just may very well be...

    Proud of you dear friend. Loving your heart on this matter <3


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