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Friday, October 26, 2012

hurt.

Friends. I had planned to share my Chicago travel pictures with you this evening, but something else surfaces on my heart and so, I write.

I could have shared my Chicago photo diary or even a post full of Friday favorites... 
I almost did.

But then I decided to share my heart. My real, raw heart. Because I always want to be honest and real on this little space.


Tonight my heart hurts. It's nothing dramatic or serious, I promise. But just those pangs that come, unexpectedly but surely, in every human relationship. Relationships are messy. We get hurt. We hurt each other. And it's painful. 

You know that feeling? Hurt and pain, and also disappointment. "They let me down," we muse. I caught myself thinking that this week, today. But that is the problem. We simply cannot be the perfect friend. The perfect sister, daughter, mother, wife. And we cannot expect others to be perfect, either. We hurt each other. Relationships are messy. In my disappointed heart I remembered wise words I once heard, 

"People are gonna hurt you and let you down.
Your family, your friends - they are wonderful.
But they will hurt you, from time to time.
God is the only one who will never let you down."

Oh why do I put my hope in people? People instead of Him.

People are broken. I am broken. And we hurt. Sometimes we hurt bad. And that's real, it's raw, it's life. We get hurt... and we also hurt back, sometimes without even knowing it.

Only He can take my brokenness and make me whole. Only He can fill my empty, hurting heart. Only He can fill the void. Only He can heal the wound, mend the cuts. 

I don't really know if this all resonates with anyone but me. Perhaps it's just my full heart just spilling over here onto this page. 

All of that to say I want to remind myself, and you who understand the hurt... 

That there is someone who will never hurt us.

The only One who will never, ever let you down.

The only One will never make you cry.

Or misunderstand you.

Will never be insensitive, or cutting.

Will never dismiss you or turn away from you.

Will never walk away from you, never ignore you, never cheat on you.

Who will never, ever belittle you or make you feel small or worthless.


Oh my precious reader, and my own soul - take the pain to Jesus. 
Take the disappointment to Him. The loss. The bitterness. The anger. Take it to Him.

And hold fast to this truth. The one that came to the surface of my mind as I hurt today: 


Rest under His feathers, hide under the shadow of His wings. 

He will keep you safe.

And He will always, forever love you. 

Don't forget it.

I remind myself, tonight.



Love.

Me

38 comments:

  1. Very touching! This was the first blog I read of yours , they are awesome

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  2. hello from germany dearest friend...thank you for always being real. praying for you from across the world. love ya

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  3. So, so true! It's so important that we keep our eyes on Jesus and not man because man will let us down, but He never will. Love your honesty in this post!

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  4. I'm sure we all know what that is like. I'm so sorry and am praying for you! It's very cool to see you processing it in such a godly way...and putting it out there as an example to others. Thank you! <3
    Alesha <3

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  5. Thinking of you! So sweet to trust in Jesus. So thankful for His love.

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  6. Thinking of you! So sweet to trust in Jesus. So thankful for His love.

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  7. Oh, this is so true and what's on my heart right now! I hope that we both can remember His truth.

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  8. How true are your words! Praying for you and whatever situation has your heart hurting.

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  9. I just stumbled across your blog this morning, but I am so glad that I did. God knew I needed this reminder. Thank you so much for putting your heart out there; God spoke to me through it!

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  10. What a touching post and completely honest! I'm going through some hurt right now about a family member and you are so right. I just need to be patient and know that God love me for who I am and this family member will soon see His work in her life.

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  11. Oh, I know your hurt friend. YOU'LL MAKE IT THROUGH! xo

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  12. Lifting you up dear friend. Such wisdom in your words. Much love, beth

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  13. Thank you, thank you, thank you for writing this. I really did need this reminder. I've been hurting lately too, I've been giving it to God, but its been hard to let go. My heart hurts. But I feel like God is speaking to me through you and this post... You wrote this for more than yourself. Its because God knew others needed to hear it too, be reminded. Thank you for listening to Him. For sharing your heart. For helping me feel comfort.

    Maria-Isabel
    www.agapelovedesigns.com

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  15. Thank you for sharing this post. It was what I need to hear & be reminded of. So often I put my hope in the wrong place and am left disappointed and burdened. Your honesty is encouraging. Thank you!

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  16. So true and from a beautiful soul! Love you!

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  17. Oh man....Thanks sooooo much Erin! I needed that so badly. Thank you for sharing your heart, and for saying exactly what my heart was feeling, and understanding it.

    I am praying for you, girl!! Keep doing what you do, its just soo beautiful.

    -Lauricia
    Giveitsomestyle.blogspot.com

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  18. This is so ironic to read, because I just discovered for myself about a month ago. I learned that people will always fail me- always. But God never will.

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  19. It's such a hard thing to be hurt, disappointed, angered, etc by people we love and who love us. I've been there quite s few times unfortunately and I hug you tonight girl!! :)

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  20. Love this! Great verse! And such true words!

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  21. amen sister :) He is so good to us. So constant.

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  22. This is a beautiful post Erin... It is so true, we will be a disappointment to others and sure enough they will also disappoint us. Jesus is the one who heals the pain and makes us whole again... Blessings showered over you as Jesus comforts your hurting heart~

    Danise

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  23. Thanks for sharing this Erin! I was just talking with my roommate tonight about some heavy things and the conclusion we came to is similar to your message here. Only Jesus can heal the hurt. We can only look to Him to sustain us and keep us! I'm reminded of that familiar song:

    Turn your eyes upon Jesus, look full in His wonderful face, and the things of earth will grow strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace.

    May we look to Him for healing :)

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  24. i totally get it. i'm constantly let down by people i trust the most :(

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  25. Sorry to hear, be strong girl and I am glad you have Him to look over you.

    I do get let down many times by people but I just hold my head high up and presume my life as normal, it is all their losses!

    xx
    The Young Bridget Jones
    Katrina Sophia Art

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  26. I love this so much. Relationships, community -- I have been learning so much about this messiness. The beauty, the broken. Thanks for sharing your heart!

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  27. Thank you so much for this reminder. It's something I need to be reminded of every day. Praying for you dear, text me if you want to chat. :)

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  28. very touvhing. sorry you are hurting sweet girl!

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  29. I can definitely relate to this feeling. It does creep up on us, but your perspective is so true. Thanks for sharing.

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  30. This definitely revealed some heart aches that I have been dealing with too. You are so right...we disappoint each other. Feelings get hurt and even if trying NOT to do the "eye for eye" thing...when my feelings are hurt I'm "short" with the people that I'm either upset with, hurt by or disappointed in. Not cool of me. They may be having similar feelings about me. And, I feel you are right...some of my hurt is my fault for putting too much "value" there in interactions between people that should not weigh so heavy on my heart when thinking about the big picture. And, swallowing my pride over and over is not comfortable for me. I really hate that part.
    Thanks for a post that was honest AND uplifting.
    --Kimberly

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  31. SO sorry that you're feeling let down....not a fun place to be. I'll say a prayer for you tonight!

    ~Tiffany
    http://tiffanyd22.blogspot.com

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  32. This was so incredibly moving Erin. Thank you for always being real and honest.
    When i was preparing for marriage... but if we were both Christians that we would work it out and no 1 would ever get hurt. that if we continue to yield to the Lord that there was no way hurt what happened between us because we love each other. I was mistaken. Ha ha. with a perfect people hurt will eventually come... you do work through it but there will be time your heart still hurts.
    but just like you said there is One who will never hurt us. He is the ONLY one who can satisfy our hearts. I am so glad that i have realized this.

    Hugs and prayers for you!

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  33. Oh my, this spoke straight to me. I totally agree- people will let us down but God will not. I need to learn to put more of my trust in Him rather than those around me. So sorry to hear that you have been feeling so hurt :(

    On another note, thanks for joining up with the Almost Friday Thursday Blog Hop. We would love to have you back again this week :)

    Samara
    www.thesecretlifeofsamara.com

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  34. This 100% resonated with me this morning. I've been in a bit of a quell with a close family member as well, and sometimes it can be so hard to take it to Jesus. Sometimes you don't want to "forgive and forget," and it's a lot easier to hold on to the pain and bitterness.

    I pray that your problem gets better, and that God will heal your heart! You're such an amazing woman of God, and you deserve everything great in life!

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  35. what a beautiful reminder of a post. thanks for sharing your heart here. =)

    Just stopping by from The Wiegand's, sweet Casey's blog, to personally invite you to join me for An Aloha Affair; a sort of end of week gathering and mingling and growing together. I'd love to have ya, stop by anytime...

    xo,
    Nicole
    localsugarhawaii.com

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sweet friends, share your heart.

"kind words are like honey...sweet..and healing.." -proverbs 16:24.

xo.

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